Finally got it

I apologize for the funky alignment in my blog today.  I angered the blog format gods and now it won't go back to normal.  Enjoy :)

This week has been a little abnormal.  We had snow and ice, hot, cold, and crazy wind all in the same week.  Way to go Kansas.  I did get one run in before the snow and ice and then me being sick.  Let's just say 1) I am glad that i had built up one day of PTO so I still got paid to puke my guts up  2) Boom's been limping on a back foot only when he gets up from laying down, so time off will help since we can't find ANYTHING wrong with him.  3) I've been sad to not to get to spend any time with Andrew over spring break, so even a sick day is better than nothing right?

Pi Day run with my BRF

I missed the club meeting on Wednesday thanks to working two jobs. I don't want to have to resign, but at some point, people are going to get sick of me missing being a board member and the one to take notes/minutes.  At least the club meetings will be at the track coming up soon and I will have no excuse (other than football season).  Why do I feel guilty about all of these things? I also missed the parade and walking with the club handing out candy and flyers thanks to being sick.  Again, huge guilt fest, but just getting up and doing a few things made me feel dizzy and horrible again, so decorating for a parade in the freezing cold, waiting for over 4 hours to walk while getting lined up in the freezing cold, and then actually walking in the parade and freezing my butt off  probably wouldn't have been a good idea.  

scientist selfie with double glasses

I had hoped that by Sunday I would feel well enough to do some things like maybe a short run, take Andrew some where fun to end his spring break, or something other than be a slug and lay on the couch all day.  I woke up feeling much the same, congested, stomach not feeling right, and just out of it.  Add on major anxiety attacks about our small business and issues going on in life in general and I just felt like laying on the couch, not moving, and wallowing in some self pity.   I haven't been super sick or a super slug in a while, so I have tried to embrace it and make it positive by talking with my friends who always get me in a better mindset, watching more NCAA basketball (something I never slow down enough to actually do and my favorite sport to play growing up was most certainly basketball), and watching AKC national agility challengers round/finals round and cheering my old agility friends on.  

   

So many great memories brought up of years and years that I traveled and showed my dogs in the great sport of agility and competed at AKC nationals. I even have previous blogs devoted to training and showing miller and training and showing Deuce.  Such a big part of my history that I had to give up when I had my kiddo and while I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world and I don't have a current dog to train, I have been missing it mightily lately.  Maybe time to start planning that next puppy?

Let's end on some of my favorite things of the week since i am in such a funk shall we?

This kid.  That shirt was technically for me, but it conveniently didn't fit so he has to wear it.

Yuengling at our local favorite bar.  YUM!

My own charcoal in my boots with my initials on the charcoal bags at work.  I think that means maybe I get to stay :)  And yes, we wear steel toed boots at work, weird I know.  

Ignore my crazy hair, but snuggles with little red.  I debated about quarantining myself away from the family, but in the end I figured we are all going to get this virus and little red probably has had it already since he had a period of  something like this a week or so ago.  There is a new quiz game on Roblox he is really into so we played it several times and won.  Trivia is my jam!

Have a great week y'all!  I am looking forward to being back at work with my team, being back to some sort of running as the weather is going to be more spring like, and hopefully feeling more like my normal self.  I don't do sick well because I don't do lazy well, so here is to being back to normal!

Lack of motivation...but here it is anyway

I am having trouble writing right now and being motivated to much of anything other than work and rest.  This would have been the week of my race that I decided was not a good idea to run even for fun or just for a long run.  The thought of getting up at 3 am and driving down to run 12 hours in the rain on mud and muck did not sound like a great idea at all and I am glad i made the decision ahead of time to not go.  The pictures of the runners looks like a lot of wet and cold people, which I don't think I could have mentally done as I am right now.  Hopefully in a few years when my life isn't so busy and Andrew isn't so active on weekends and nights (hahahaha) I can run races again and get that mojo back.  I have had lots of anxiety this week for some reason and it's been dragging me down.  I have gotten in three runs, but not near the mileage I wanted.  It was what I needed though and I will take it.  Here are some pictures from this week that made me smile.

The sky on Monday was so beautiful.  I wasn't running, but at the recycling trailer dropping off boxes when I got this one.  

A quick three before I headed back to work an experiment late.  I don't mind being the early or late person to in the lab, since I live here an am honored that they trust me now to get experiments set up.

Scientist selfie post run! My hair was way too sweaty to not have my salt crusted hat on.

Happy international Women's day!  Love working with a group of strong amazing women!  Also love a boss who cares about their employees.  Not only did we have treats in our lockers on International Women's day, but we had cinnamon rolls and coffee on Friday accompanied by a long chat.

Boom is pretty happy with whatever mileage he can get.

Little things that make me happiest this week:

New face scrub that smells amazing!

Cinnamon crunch popcorners!

New shampoo for my very fine and very rapidly thinning hair.  Thanks stress and menopause.

New purple goodrs.  Hubby said, how many pairs do you own????  I said does it really matter, they are only 25 bucks?

Getting lucky at Bonkers (think Chucky Cheese) and winning over 4K tickets to get him the Charizard he wanted.  I just had lucky fingers that day for sure!

Snuggling with my ever growing boy.  He very rarely wants to snuggle and cuddle but when he gets tired he can become a snuggle bug.  He and his friend who spent the night the previous night stayed up all night and he was pretty tired by the end of the day.  

And there you have it!  Have a great week y'all!

It is what it is

 Welcome to my crazy life.  Most days I feel like this:

I keep telling myself there are worse things in the world from being deathly tired from working 2 jobs like cancer, or death in the family, or the loss of a job.  This is just a blip in the road and I can do this.  Many people work 2 and 3 jobs to make ends meet and they don't bitch and moan like me.  My poor friends are probably so tired of hearing me cry about being tired.  This week oddly enough I have been so tired I couldn't sleep.  Ever get like that?  I tried me new meds that my doctor gave me and they just made me feel super loopy and drugged for a solid day.  I have been told it takes a while to get use to and that the drug hangover goes away, but I am not sure I want to stick around with that drug long enough to find out.  I think exhaustion and then passing out due to exhaustion and sleeping 12 hours one night sounds nicer.  

  

I did get out and get some very short runs in.  The weather has been super nice, almost spring like dare I say.  We have had such a weird winter here.  I don't mind warmer, I just am not ready for the oppressive humidity that accompanies the warmth.  I am also very very glad I decided not to do my race.  I am still battling knee issues and I can't get in with my chiro since my research is so sporadic and unpredictable right now.  I am trying a new brand of turmeric and using my massage gun as much as I can to keep things limber and not taunt.  I got in two three milers and an 8 miler.  I didn't get a run in on Sunday due to sleeping in and then heading to the race track for track clean up day.  It is what it is.....

Have a great week y'all.