She's home

Good to be back in Kansas for a while.  Leaving again soon for round 3 of 4 and glad to be almost done with these trips!

She came home last week. I am glad that they called while I was in Wisconsin so that Tony picked her up.  I had a complete and total melt down when I picked up Deuce and I just couldn't do it again.  I am hoping they did a clay paw and or a nose print as they did that for Deuce last time and it meant so much to me.  They didn't give anything to Tony but maybe the person at the desk just didn't know.  How do they fit such a larger-than-life dog in such a little box?  She's the smallest of the boxes we have, and it just makes me so sad.  She was such a big in your face amazing dog and it's hard to see her reduced to this.  I still haven't been able to sit down and put into words what she meant to me.  I have had trouble with Deuce also because he was such an amazing dog 24:7. How do you put almost 14 years of life into a blog post?  It's so hard that it will take me time and I have no clue when I will have it done.  I actually never posted Deuce's memorial post either.  I just couldn't finish it. 

I did later in the week get back to running with three short runs. I honestly had no clue how this was going to go with over a month off with little to no physical activity.  I had looked at run/walk plans or couch to five 5k plans just in case I needed to walk all the way back to the beginning. I am very glad to say that I ran 3 miles each time and had no issues at all.  My ribs are definitely sore, but I don't think running is going to keep them from healing.  My body was like WTF a few times, but it gladly got over it.  I am hoping to get back to my work out classes in the next week or so as well.  

I don't think I wrote about this in my last post, but maybe I did.  It's been a bit crazy at work.  Between coworkers getting sick and being out, we have had some layoffs that scared all of us.  While in Wisconsin, they decided to shut down one whole lab due to looking at different directions for our company.  They also got rid of one of our favorite engineers who helped a ton in our lab.  Am I nervous?  A little.  Am I sad for those who have been let go?  Well, some were not happy, and I think now they are much happier even without a job.  The loss of the engineer was the toughest because I was close to him, and I will miss our conversations.  These are the reasons I didn't really want to get back to working in industry.  Changes are made swiftly, and profit is the name of the game, which I totally now understand being a business owner.  It's just scary to think that one day you could have a job and the next nothing.  The market in our area is NOT good for scientists.  My gut, which is usually my guide to freak out or not is mostly calm.  Our lab has value to the company, we are all very hard workers, and we have a clear goal for the year.  Will I still have a job post this year?  Time will tell, but I just can't worry about the future right now. I need to stay in the moment and work my butt off to show my worth.  To be continued.

Have a great week y'all!