All the emotions

This week was a tough one for me.  I was very emotional all week and cried any time anything didn't go my way or made me sad or really for no reason at all.   Lots and lots of tears all week.  I am hoping this is just perimenopause and nothing else, but also this was Stella's birthday week and that hit me pretty hard and didn't help.  I also was absolutely dreading racing.  I think the biking/flipping had me on edge and I was dreading the what ifs.  I know he is super safe but watching him bike all day, watching any kid bike even the tiniest bit has gotten me super nervous.  

I got four work outs in, an upper body, a lower body, a 45-minute push and a 15-minute core work out.  Loving how I can just fit them in when I have time.  My running however was not as good and got three runs of minimal mileage. Really wanted to do an 8 miler just in case we don't race, and I can go to the half marathon here in town, but my body and my mind just weren't in it.  I used to not listen to my body or my mind but here lately I do, and I move on and don't feel guilty.  

The week had some bright spots for sure.  Andrew's 7th grade band performed at solo and ensemble and received a one rating on their songs.  They truly sound amazing and I am trying not to be that mom but hell, we didn't sound that awesome in 7th grade so there.  

We watched the derby together and I made myself a pipe cleaner DNA hat for the derby.  My horse came in fourth, but it was a thrilling race anyway.  Andrew and I both practiced calling the horses to post and that kid can hit a C above the staff already.  Dang.  I couldn't do that till high school.  

Heavy Honda:  The black and green car is his heavy Honda car.  This is his first car and it's old and doesn't fit him like his other two, so therefore he now hates it.  He has head clearance BUT he is a wide kid and the car is narrow.  This makes him have to shove his big body all together and parts of him fall asleep, which obviously isn't good for racing.  Last week it was a stuck throttle cable and this week he just couldn't get any speed out of the car.  Once again, a final lap wreck had one car not finishing and one car getting a call on them, but Andrew still getting last because he was a lapped car.  To be continued.  Andrew is getting super frustrated, which I like to see because it means he really cares.  

Heavy 160.  He is tucked in behind the blue car in P3.  Apparently before we even got a lap in during the heat race, another car ran over his tire and broke his chain and gear.  The team couldn't get him back out, so he finished next to last thanks to one car also going out before they even doubled up.  Sigh.  We need points in this class so badly.  We came back in the feature and raced our butts off, BUT the car was not the same and got caught up in another wreck and bent the spindle.   I am proud of him for finishing the race, passing cars, and not getting last even though he had a broken race car.  I'm looking forward to some practice time with this car when it is fixed...again.  

Unrestricted animal.  This is the white and blue car he flipped the last race weekend and then went out the next day and was very nervous.  We added two more cars to this class so it's going to be a fun one moving forward.  He battled hard and got a third place in the heat and had no proof of nerves.  In the feature again, battled his butt off and had one little bobble that allowed fourth and fifth passed him.  He couldn't catch them in the end so a 5th place finish out of 7 drivers.   Super proud of this class and his grit.  

We had some incidences during one of the last races amongst club members.  Same old crap different day.  Glad I am not a board member anymore, I guess.  Probably going to have several volunteers quit because of it.  If adults can't act like adults, then I guess they will pay the price and have to volunteer to fill the positions. Not my circus or my monkeys this time.  I think my give a damn finally broke.  

Have a great week y'all!  Missing this girl so much and wishing her a big happy birthday at the rainbow bridge.